Yes, I’m terrified because I’m not good enough and there will always be someone better which I am okay with if I was at my personal best. I’ll never get to where I can be and all I can do is sit hit and watch people tell me how much of a failure I am. Putting forth effort isn’t enough anymore you actually have to be some good at it. This applies to a lot in life. this may just be a ramble or rant of how I am feeling right now but It won’t go away.
I know what I need to be done just not how to go about doing it. My mind is too weak. There lies potential but I’m not able to use it. Why is this? What is holding me back and how do I overcome this. These are the questions I ask myself or avoid asking myself. Numb the shame away. Push people away.
Some days I wish I didn’t wake up and other days I wish i had it together.
To escape this world, I tend to place myself in a different life, one I haven’t tarnished.
So much internal struggle so little brainstorm. Nigga whats good.
it was never about the nudes it was about sense of self and longing.
you were kind until i fell.